Watching you walk away was the hardest thing for me to do, the pain was unbelievably strong that I almost died at the mere sight of seeing you go.
You said it’s the only way to save me, but to me, the only way of being safe is to be right where you are.
You’ve left me, all alone. All vulnerable, like a prey waiting for its predator. Like I have no choice.
You said you cared.
You said you loved me.
You know what,
I wish you didn’t.
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Walking away from you was the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. My heart keeps telling me to stop, my mind disagrees all the while. It’s like I’m listening to two things at the same time. It’s noisy up in my head. Like a helicopter landing right on top of my head.
I’ve never been this hurt before.
Never been this unsure in my entire life.
But it’s the only way I can help you. It’s the only way I could save you.
And I would do anything to save you, I would do anything to make you happy.
Even if it meant my own life.
Even if it takes away my only happiness.
